Tuesday, February 2, 2010

The Butter Dilemma

I know this is probably a weird thing to post about, but it has really been irking me lately. I usually do my grocery shopping at the Super Target or Super Wal-mart because it is cheaper than our local grocery stores. One thing I noticed, is that both Wal-mart and Target are not carrying the whipped butter in the containers-like Breakstone's or Land O' Lakes. They seem to only be carrying margarine and that fake butter spread stuff, which in my opinion, is nasty and tastes like plastic.
Someone somewhere swears it is healthy, but if it leaves an aftertaste, how healthy can it really be?
Just saying.
Nonetheless, I went to both stores and neither had the whipped butter I was looking for. Soooo, I had to trek to Publix to find my whipped butter.
And when I found my whipped butter and placed it into my cart, there was a chorus of Halleujah's going off in my head.
Yep-the voices in my head were letting me know I done good. Even if I did have to go fifty million places for just one thing.
And really, what is up with that?
Where has all the whipped butter gone?


And who came up with the brilliant idea to not have at least one brand of whipped butter on the shelves? Because really, they should be fired.
It surely must be a crime.
And by the way, I really love my butter.
It's creamy, salty, artery hardening and well, fattening.
And running around  looking for my butter, well that is just wrong.
To make a person exercise while looking for their butter?
Really.
Because exercising and butter? They are NOT partners in fitness.
Exercise + Butter=EPIC Diet Fail.
Still, I must say no.
No, to the plastic, that can only be described as margarine.  

And really, there is nothing like the great taste of real whipped butter on bagels, popcorn and yes, toast. Margarine is not a comparable substitute.
The question is though, has anyone else noticed this? Has anyone else noticed that the whipped butter in the container is missing from the shelf?
Or is it just my crazy self having a Murphy's Law moment?
Inquiring minds want to know.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Birthday Wishes

Yesterday was Mike's birthday.
Shhhhh....it was his 40th Birthday!
Yep.
What an old man.
And being the slacker wife that I am, I didn't even wish him a happy birthday on my blog on his actual birthday.
Only because I have been sick for the last 2 weeks.
And really, it was all I could do yesterday just to drive to the Cheesecake Factory and pick up his cake. But I did it. Because well, I am not usually a birthday slacker. Just this year.
So, really, all I want to do is say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIKE!!! 
HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY YA OLD GEEZER! 


Can you feel the love? :)
Seriously, Happy Birthday Mike and I promise next year, when it's your birthday, I'll be there for ya. 
Really. 
With bells, and whistles and...Jack. 


Lots of jack.






 

Monday, January 11, 2010

Feeling Like a Freezer Pop

I know that we are only 11 days into this month but I have made an interesting discovery.
I. am. not. equipped. for. weather. below 70 degrees.
Yep.
Here in good old sunny South Florida it has been freaking cold. Now, all the people who live anywhere north of the Florida state line, I must say, you are not right in the head. You know what I'm sayin'?
And just so you know, I feel like a freezer pop and I think I'm dying of frostbite.
Really.
OK, not really, but really. I am freakin' cold. 
And those of you who believe in Global Warming? Well, suffice it to say, that global warming is not going down here in the sun capital of the world. In fact, Florida is so currently not global warming conducive that it actually...you might want to sit down for this....snowed.
Yep.
Let me repeat that for ya-S-N-O-W-E-D.
Uh huh.
Here in Florida and yes, even South Florida. 
This past weekend areas in Central Florida, like Orlando and Ocala, got to see snow. And if you were one of those people excited to see snow, well, then all righty. I am happy for you. Hope you were warm and toasty amidst all those cold flurries. 
Here in South Florida, Fort Lauderdale area to be exact, we got some snow flurries about ten minutes or so from my house.
And no, I did not go outside to see them.
Because really, snow?
Snow is cold, in case you didn't know. And I do not do cold (see the first paragraph of this post). And for it to snow it even has to be cold outside which is all well and good for those who like to be outside. I am not one of those people. Well, at least not in the winter time. Honestly, this is probably the one time in my life when I am glad to be fat. My blubber is helping to keep me warm and really, who could ask for more?
All you skinny biotches, I hope you freeze.
Just saying.
Seriously, Mike and I had been contemplating moving north of the Florida state line. Now, however, I really don't think that is at all plausible. He might have to go without me and the kids. We are staying here in good old, warm and sunny Florida. And even though it is Africa-like hot in the summer, I think I can tolerate it. That's why we have a/c's, pools and beaches right? And those of you who might want to harpoon me while I am on the beach in my bathing suit, well, all I can say is not. I am grateful for my blubber. I welcome my blubber and I will never dis my blubber again because it has performed miraculously well so far this winter, thank you very much.
And really, I'll take hurricanes and Africa-like heat over snow and cold temperatures any day.Yo, can I hear an Oh Yeah?
Ohhhh yeaahhhhh.
All righty then.
With that being said, it's time for me to go and suck down some hot chocolate, with lots of marshmallows and wallow under my blankets until Friday, when I can finally turn off my heater that is set at 75 degrees and go outside barefoot, in my shorts and t-shirt and sit under the blazing hot sun. And if I'm lucky, I may even have to kick on my a/c by Saturday because it is so hot.
And just so you know, I'm praying that I'm lucky.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Creative Mommy

With Jack Frost taking up residence in South Florida, we have been holed up in the house to stay warm. This means lots of family togetherness. Really, it's overrated. Something about warmer weather where children are forced to go outside and play is good, really good. Like maintaining my sanity good.
But since Jack has been here, we have been trying to deal.
Enter Wii.
Yep, the best thing ever invented. Did I say ever?
EVER.
Because that is the only thing that has kept my children from killing each other the last 2.5 days. Really.
Super Smash Bros. Brawl is majorly awesome. My children have been playing all weekend. Normally, I would cringe. This weekend, I am like have at it kiddos.
Only on Saturday, we had some issues. And because two of three people under five foot tall (ummm Panda and Monkeyboy) thought it was okay to beat the crap out of one another, they had the honor of writing an essay.
1,000 words for Monkeyboy and 150 words for Panda.
Yep.
Because taking away the computer and the video games does not work all that well. Soooo, forced to be more creative, I have been doling out essay assignments. Which means improvements in handwriting and writing thoughts coherently.
A win-win for all I say.
Well, mostly for me.
Monkeyboy was not at all happy when he heard his essay had to be handwritten because as he puts it "how will I know when I reach 1,000 words?"
Ummm...by counting?
The old fashioned way-like one word, two words.....
Stubborn that he is, he wrote his essay on the computer first, and then wrote it out by hand to meet my guidelines. Pretty funny, because 1) he was doing it twice and 2) kept him quiet/busy longer.
I am thinking I won, thank you very much.
And after that little essay writing episode?
Everyone got along much better.
Who would of thunk it? 
Ahhhh.....the power of the mommy.
I still got it! :)

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

The Challenge Continues

I have been MIA the last couple of weeks. Basically, I am just trying to decompress from the holidays. As much as I love them, they stress me out. And those family gatherings are way too much drama for my liking. So for the last couple of weeks, I have been unplugged and hanging with my family, just enjoying their company.
Relaxing.
Well, as much relaxing as a mom with three kids, racing around the house in pajamas all day, playing Wii and annoying the heck out of one another, can do. 
Just saying. 
And in the midst of all that Wii playing, I had the rare opportunity to watch what I wanted to watch on TV and stumbled upon the Dave Ramsey show. I am always looking for new ways to combat debt and resuscitate my financial health so I watched a few episodes of his show. On one episode, Dave had a caller who needed to reinvent himself after losing his job. The caller was discouraged and adamant about not finding another J-O-B. Dave told him that he needed to spend his time looking for a job he would love to do because then it would no longer be a job.
Sorta kinda like my quest to "find my passion."
Dave recommended the book "48 Days to the Work You Love" by Dan Miller to the caller as a starting point.
Always open to new ideas and information, I went to Barnes and Noble and purchased a copy to see what the book had to offer.
Honestly, it was not what I expected.
Well, let me rephrase that.
It was what I expected because it didn't tell me "how" to find my passion, but it did give me some good starting points and an interesting perspective.
For instance, the premise of the book is finding what you like to do that spotlights your "God-given skills, personality traits, values, dreams and passions." It is an introspective look at what you perceive your talents and skills to be, kind of like a mission statement for your life.
And this mission statement, although written in generalities to some degree, reflects you, the person-how you want to live your life, what you want to do, how you would like to be remembered and the steps you are going to take to accomplish that.
A much different perspective than I have had in the past.
Really, I had never thought about writing a mission statement for my life.
And this new way of thinking is such a simple and common sense concept that I had forgotten. The author likened the process to being young again and having the belief that we could do and be anything we wanted to be. He stressed that as we grow older and experience life, we allow the expectations of others to influence how we choose to live our lives, our career paths and so forth. And really, we should be using our natural instincts, our talents, to do what we love. If we are doing what we love, we are in that happy zone-we feel good about ourselves, we are content and most importantly, we are happy.
Powerful stuff.
For me, the process of listing my God-given talents, my special skills, and my values and dreams has given me a new perspective of myself. I guess I am a step closer to finding my passion, although I do wish there was a twelve step program to finding your true calling because all this introspection stuff, is draining. LOL!
Anywho.
If you are interested, check out the book. In the meanwhile, I am still on my quest. So far, 2010 has proven to be challenging and I am ready to embrace that challenge. Most importantly, I hope that by detailing my journey, I will be able to help some of you who are also on this same quest.
Happy New Year everyone!

Saturday, December 19, 2009

Memories and Musings of Elementary School Lunch

This is my second entry in the Write of Passage writing challenge. This week's challenge was:


Take Fifteen Minutes to write about your elementary school lunch. Describe. 
Remember. Smell. Touch. Who is there? Where are you? What are you eating?

The thing I remember most about my elementary school lunchroom was the smell.
It was disgusting.
The smell of student lunches mixing, food cooking and the garbage disposal running would turn my stomach. To this day, when I walk into my children's school cafeteria, the smell is the first thing I notice. It still makes me nauseous. It's one of the only places I won't volunteer. I just can't do it. And even as an adult, the smell turns my stomach and makes me start dry heaving.
Do you feel closer to me now that you know that? :)
In elementary school our lunches were served on cardboard yellow trays that were thrown into the garbage disposal when we were done. I remember having to pick off certain items because they were not allowed in the disposal, but cannot specifically remember which items went where. I just remember wanting to throw my tray into the garbage disposal as quickly as possible so I wouldn't lose my lunch. I also stayed as far away from the chute because if you were too close, it would splatter. My worst fear was having the disposal spit someone's school lunch remains back at me. It still gives me the heebie-jeebies.
Our lunch menu was always interesting. Some foods like beef and macaroni and spaghetti made me want to hurl from the smell alone. The sight of the sauce would make me think of the cans of tomato paste my mom would open on Sunday mornings as she was preparing her pot of sauce. At school, the red sauce looked pasty, clumpy and there was no gravy, just macaroni slopped together with the sauce. On those pseudo "Italian macaroni" days, I would eat my dessert and call it lunch.
There were some meals, though that I really looked forward to-like pizza and macaroni and cheese.
I loved the school's macaroni and cheese. 
Mainly because my family was Italian and my mother did not make macaroni and cheese because it was not right. Well, at least not in her eyes. Macaroni had to be served with sauce, meat or yuckitty yuck yuck, lentils. When we got to high school, both my brother and I would go to the store and purchase boxes of Kraft Macaroni and Cheese and make it ourselves. It was so delicious and was something we both really enjoyed eating. My mom would cringe as my brother and I would eat an entire pot of what she called "the most fattening stuff ever." We didn't care. And to this day, I LOVE mac n' cheese.
So do my kids.
Just saying. 
My favorite days were pizza days. Maybe because I loved pizza but mmmmm...was it good. The pizza was cut into a rectangle and was always hot and cheesy. It was nothing like the Sicilian pizza we would eat on the weekends, but the next best thing in my eyes. Mexican pizza and taco days were also favorites of mine because living in an Italian family we did not get to have Mexican anything. Period.
The other thing I liked about my school lunches were the little desserts. I loved the brownies and the chocolate chip cookies. The cakes and pie-looking stuff, not so much. They always tasted so processed-even back then. Maybe because I loved baking and my mom would let me bake my own cakes and cookies on the weekends and holidays. My cakes always tasted so fresh, moist and yummy that I couldn't bring myself to eat the crap the school served. Some days, the school served little containers of fruit juice or fruit. I did not like their juices or their fruit because it always looked and smelled old and moldy. Plus, the juice had pulp in it and that totally grossed me out.
Still does, even to this day.  
Periodically, they would serve those juice bars and the orange ones, they were the bomb. If the popsicles were too funky-like grapefruit flavored, I would let it melt on my tray or give it away. As a kid, I believed it was wrong to serve grapefruit popsicles to us kids. We wanted the good flavors, like orange, cherry and grape.
Not. Grapefruit. Ugh!
Now the chocolate milk, that was my little pint of goodness. All that I looked forward to each day. I LOVED school lunches for the chocolate milk alone. My mom was not a fan of chocolate milk and school was generally the only place I ever had the opportunity to suck some down. It was always delicious, cold and well, chocolaty. And I remember savoring each sip until the carton was empty and then wishing I had more money to buy another carton.
Funny thing about my elementary school lunch days, is that I don't remember much about the people I sat with. I don't remember ever sitting with one special friend during lunch. I just would sit at the table with my class, eating and chatting. It was all very casual. And everyone was pretty much friends with everyone else.
Amazingly enough, when I started the prompt I thought I would have a hard time remembering my school lunch days, but as I started writing, the memories came flooding back to me. Funny, how that happens.
Take some time now and think about your elementary school lunch days. What do you remember most about your elementary school lunch? Was it the food, the smell, the people? Share your memories with me in the comments. I look forward to strolling down memory lane with you! :)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Passion Quest

 I must say, that finding one's passion is not an easy task. We are conditioned at an early age to suck it up and just do as we are told, so for someone such as myself, finding something that I want to do, just because I love doing it, is a new concept.
It's a bit intimidating simply because you have to put yourself out there. You have to feel, be engaged and have a strong need to do something. The Merriam-Webster Online Dictionary defines passion as "a strong liking or desire for or devotion to some activity, object or concept." So it's not a  want to do something, but a need to do something.
For me, that's hard because my priority has never been my wants or desires, but always those of someone else. It's how I'm wired. And changing that wiring is tedious, frustrating and exhilarating all at once because I want to get the job done and move on. To start living. And it's not that simple.
I started my journey about two years ago after a falling out with my family. Not Mike and the kids, but my side of the family. They hurt me and I realized it was time to let them go. That by allowing them to upset me I was being derailed from living the life that I wanted to live. So I started blogging as a way to connect with other people, mainly moms, because, that's how I define myself at this season of my life. As a mom. I have three children, I wipe their asses, cook them dinner, schlep them to school and play SpongeBob Monopoly even though it is the longest game ever because I love what I do. I am passionate about my kids.
I call myself a Mommy Blogger because that is what I am-a mom who blogs about her family, her life and the journey, wherever it takes me.  
Am I passionate about it?
I'm not sure.
Sometimes I write a post and it takes everything I have to hit the publish button. I wuss out because to share my thoughts and life so freely with all in cyberspace is difficult. And then there are the times that something triggers an emotional response-whether it be anger, laughter, happiness-whatever, and I can't wait to share it with everyone.  But most of the time, I don't know what to say. So I am not sure that is really what I am passionate about.
The self-help books really don't give you a model to base your level of "passion" on so I guess I am left to figure that part out on my own.  Kinda like this whole passion search. Which is kinda like Star Search and American Idol with a little drama mixed in. Well, minus Paula Abdul's antics and Adam Lambert's sex stunts. 
And yes, since I am so anal, I decided to start my "passion quest" by thinking about the things I like to do.
Yep, thinking.
Funny word. To think about something means to have time to sit and contemplate things. To forgo the laundry, chatting with my friends or watching really bad TV.
Thinking is hard work because the voices in my head NEVER. SHUT. UP.
They keep going and going and really only increase my anxiety and cloud my judgment,  So I had to learn to turn them off, which caused me even more stress.
And those books?
They suck.
They don't tell you how to do that either.
So after reading the Secret and seeking out some other information about gratitude and creating my own path, I stumbled upon Bill Harris, one of the people featured in the Secret. Bill Harris promotes meditation as a relaxation technique and way to get your brain going. And not really into all that New Age stuff, I was skeptical. So I sent away for his trial CD and I loved it. It actually helped me. And I bought the first level of his Holosnyc CD, which by the way is freaking expensive, but totally worth the money. Well, at least for me. It actually helped me to relax and quiet Sybil and her 27 chatty-ass sisters.
Sometimes, it would put me to sleep, like that passed out dead drunk asleep, but I was sober, know what I mean?  I guess with my mind on overload, it was what I needed to give my body the rest it needed from  the anxiety and stress my mind had created.
After a while, I was able to think more clearly and see things about me, my life and my family, that I had never realized before. And then I started looking at the things that I like to do-my hobbies, my interests-in the hopes that a clue would emerge as to my true passion. 
I'm still looking.
And now, as Dr. Horner said oh so many years ago, I am grappling with those interests and hobbies. Picking them apart and examining what I like about them, what drives me to do them or any kind of indication as to what about that particular activity makes me happy. And even more ridiculously funny is that I am evaluating my level of happiness on a scale of 1-5 with 5 being the happiest, to vet out that things I love the most.
Pretty fucked up, huh?
Well, as they say on the Rugrats, "a mommy's gotta do, what a mommy's gotta do."
Yep.
So, my first challenge to those of you interested, is to sit down, relax and think about the things you like to do. Just think at first. Think about the feelings or the emotions they ellicit and see where it takes you. Then write those things down and figure out where on the happiness scale you are when you are doing those things. It sounds so simple, but it's not.
And really, these are just baby steps. They take awhile to mull over and dissect. Sometimes, those likes and happiness factors are subjective.
Whatever.
Go with what works. Just start. Because as someone who has let fear and uncertainty lead her, sometimes what you find may surprise you.